Doing the Hard Stuff in Recovery

Do you know Tina (crystal meth)?

Then you must also know Gina (Gamma Hydroxybutyrate or GHB).

Those girls are thick as thieves.

Gina is a downer to counteract the upper of Tina.

Maybe like taking an Adderall and Xanax together?

I didn't take Gina for the downer. I took her because of the love potion effect.

The substance added a sensuality to the meth experience that was difficult to find otherwise.

Any guy who took it fell in love with me; often, it was the only time I could get affection.

Gina experiences were when I was told things like:

"Be my boyfriend'" and "I think I love you."

Being told "I love you" was my biggest turn-on.

I was typically WAY out of place in a meth crowd where men were objects.

The popular turn-on was usually the opposite:

"Tell me what a bitch I am" or "Treat me like a piece of trash."

One could infer by my turn-on that it was born from a place of deep trauma.

A void of love.

A void that I avoided (See what I did there?).

My guess is that you found your way into meth because of a void that you are avoiding as well.

How do we fill that void?

By facing life head-on. By not avoiding the work.

What is the work?

In early recovery, everything is the work.

But... here are the major 'avoids' that keep you in the relapse cycle:

Cravings- we cower in fear and use cravings to embrace victimhood instead of taking control of their outcomes (more on this next week).

Emotions- we desperately seek to feel better because we are taught not to show emotion. They become suppressed and 'ferment' in the psyche.

Intrusive Thoughts- we switch our minds to happy thoughts or give in to the disempowerment energy they bring instead of observing them to find their source.

Difficult Conversations- we aren't comfortable with discomfort because we haven't learned to regulate the nervous system. Our boundaries suffer, and so do our relationships.

Avoiding creates a void.

Voids get filled with the most accessible temporary fix.

And for us, that fix is crystal meth.

Are you ready to do the work?

I have TWO slots open in September for new clients. That is it. I'm happy about the growth but sad that I can only take two. If you are interested in 1:1 coaching, reply NOW to this email, and we can discuss the qualifications.

Love you all,

Dallas 💚

September 3, 2024