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Sitting in a circle with 8 heterosexual people of various genders, none of whom with a history of crystal methamphetamine use.Â
Working with drug counselors who had never heard the word "Tina" before.
That was my treatment experience. Also, my probation experience. Also, my drug court experien...
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Can you remember who you were before you tried meth (or meph or monkey dust)?Â
I remember me.
The man who thought coming out of the closet was the answer to my pain.Â
The man who imprinted onto every man who showed him attention.Â
The man who wrapped anger and resentment around him like a hea...
You know that feeling, right?
You turn every corner trying to get substance-free, trying to build a better life, and there's just... another wall. Another setback. Another slip. Another disappointment.
You're doing everything "right" - going to meetings, working steps, seeing your therapist, whi...
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You know you need to quit. You've known for a while now.
You can see what crystal is costing you—the relationships damaged, the opportunities missed, the version of yourself that keeps slipping further away.
You've had moments of clarity where you think, "This is it. I'm done. Tomorrow I'm goi...
Hey y'all,
Breaking free of the notion that recovery (or healing or life in general) is a linear process was the most impactful perspective shift of my journey.
When I viewed the process as a spiral, it created space for self-compassion, awareness, and a deeper level of preparedness.Â
When you d...
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"I don't trust myself."
One of the most common limiting beliefs I see among the men who come to me for help. Sometimes this is a literal spoken sentence, and other times it's a clear message based on behavior.Â
Either way, it's rooted in shame and resignation, like it's an indictment of their ...
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One of the greatest gifts crystal methamphetamine gave me was the understanding of boundaries.
I wasn't shown boundaries as a child.Â
I never knew how to create boundaries as an adult.
And in my active meth use, that gap in understanding was exploited by the chemical.
For example, whenever som...
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It's December 29th.
You know what's coming.
In three days, millions of people will wake up, hungover or not, and make sweeping declarations about who they're going to become:
"This year, I'm going to the gym five times a week."
"This year, I'm quitting substances for good."
"This year, I'm fin...
Hey y'all,
If you've listened to my recovery story, you may recall that early on, I found a job serving at a local high-end steakhouse.Â
Every day before the shift began, we were required to circle around the managers to hear the latest announcements and typically a list of server wrongdoings.Â
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What if the traditional amends process is just the foundation, and there's a whole other level of transformation waiting?
Hey y'all,
Let me start by saying this: If you've done traditional amends work in a 12-step program, that took courage. Real courage.
Making a list of people you've harmed ...
Content Warning: This episode discusses addiction, family crisis, substance use, and challenging family dynamics. If you feel triggered or need support, please reach out to your support network or contact your local crisis resources.
A Personal Note from Dallas
When I fell into the chemsex worl...
There are powers greater than our individual selves—this is undeniable.Â
You might draw strength from nature's cycles, wisdom from ancestors who walked difficult paths before you, or guidance from your highest self (the version of you that already exists in your future, calling you forward).
The...
