If any of this sounds familiar, keep reading.
You haven't used in months. Maybe a year. Maybe longer.
The cravings are quieter now. The chaos has receded. The version of you that nobody recognized β including you β is gone.
And you are sitting in this strange, new silence and realizing something nobody warned you about:
The substance was never the only problem.
Your friends were your using buddies. Your sex life was the scene. Your Friday night, your sense of belonging, your whole map of who you were β all of it was tangled up in a world you've now walked away from.
And the question that keeps surfacing, quietly and persistently, is the one nobody at the meeting can quite answer:
Now what?
This retreat is for that question.
A retreat for the part of recovery nobody talks about.
Three days. Twelve men. Florida. Three facilitators with combined decades of clinical experience and lived recovery.
This is not a treatment program. It is not a 12-step weekend. It is not a tantra retreat or a sex-positivity workshop. It is something the field has been missing β and that the men we work with have been asking for.
Most of the men who'll be in the room have been substance-free for at least several months. Some for years. They've done the early work. They are no longer in crisis. And they are ready for the deeper work β the part where you stop reacting and start rebuilding. The part where you ask not just "how do I stay substance-free?" but "who am I becoming, now that I am?"
This retreat is for you ifβ¦
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βΒ You're a man who has had sex with men, and chemsex was part of your life
β You've been substance-free long enough that the early-recovery fog has cleared
β You're past the acute work and into the questions underneath: identity, sex, values, who you are now
β You can self-regulate emotionally and engage in group work without needing constant 1:1 support
β You're willing to put your phone down, leave your usual patterns at the door, and be present with eleven other men
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This retreat is not for you ifβ¦
β You're still in active use and looking for harm-reduction support
β You're in the first weeks of recovery (we'll likely ask you to come to the next one)
β You're hoping to meet someone β the cohort agreement is no romantic or sexual involvement during the retreat
β You're not ready to be screened. (Every applicant has a conversation with us before being accepted.)
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Apply for a SpotFour threads woven through three days.
We don't believe recovery is one thing. The men we work with carry four open questions when they arrive at this stage β and the retreat is built around all four.
PILLAR 1 β IDENTITY & MINDSET:
Who are you, now that you're not who you were? We work through visioning, core emotional drivers, and the limiting beliefs that were already there before meth and that meth never actually fixed. You leave with a working blueprint for the version of you that's emerging.Β Led by Dallas Bragg, Chemsex Recovery Coach and co-author of Lust, Men and Meth: A Study Guide.
PILLAR 2 β SEXUAL REINTEGRATION:
Sex on meth rewires you. Sex without it is its own learning curve β sometimes flat, sometimes anxious, often confusing. This thread is led by Dr. David Fawcett, author of Lust, Men and Meth and Sex Under the Influence and co-author with Dallas Bragg of the Lust, Men and Meth Study Guide. It approaches sexual reintegration as a craft rather than a return.Β Shame-free, clinically grounded, and direct.
PILLAR 3 β VALUES & ETHICS:
Most of us inherited our sexual scripts β from the culture, the apps, the scene, the church we left. This thread, led by Andrew McDonnell, draws on Stoic philosophy and modern sexual ethics to help you build an internal compass. Not someone else's rules. Your discernment.
PILLAR 4 β BROTHERHOOD:
Twelve men in a room who don't have to explain. No translation. No softening for an audience that doesn't know what Tina is. The cohort itself is the medicine β bonded before arrival through a pre-retreat Zoom and held together long after through ongoing connection.
Three facilitators. One conversation that doesn't usually happen in the same room.
DALLAS BRAGG
Dallas is the Founder of Recovery Alchemy, a 1:1 and Group Coaching Chemsex Recovery program. He is also the creator of The AfterMeth Podcast, dedicated to supporting gay and bisexual men in recovery from crystal meth. In recovery since 2018, Dallas offers a unique blend of lived experience, compassionate guidance, and practical strategies for transformation.
DR. DAVID FAWCETT
David Fawcett, PhD, CST, CSAT is an internationally recognized psychotherapist and clinical sexologist. In addition to his books, he is a well-known speaker and consultant specializing in chemsex, LGBTQ+ mental health, and co-occurring substance use and HIV, advocating compassionate, sex-affirming recovery approaches.
ANDREW MCDONNELL
Andrew McDonnell, LMSW is a clinical social worker currently serving as an outpatient therapist for co-occurring substance use and mental health disorders in Memphis, Tennessee. He received his MSSW from the University of Tennessee College of Social Work with a certificate in trauma treatment. Andrew volunteers as a keyworker with Controlling Chemsex in London.
What three days produces.
We don't promise transformation in 72 hours. We do build a structure that produces specific, nameable outcomes:
- A working blueprint for who you're becoming β your vision, your why, your core emotional drivers, and the fears you've identified as the ones still in the way
- A framework for sexual reintegration β language for what you're navigating, an honest read of where you are, and a deliberate next step
- Your own values document β drafted in the room with you, not handed to you
- A cohort of twelve men who saw you fully and who you'll have access to long after Sunday morning
- The closing ritual β a release of what you came to put down, and a marking of what you came to pick up
The arc, from application to integration.
STEP 1 β APPLICATION:
STEP 2 β SCREENING CONVERSATION:
STEP 3 β PRE-RETREAT ZOOM:
STEP 4 β THE RETREAT:
STEP 5 β INTEGRATION:
Investment & logistics.
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INVESTMENT:
Not because you're broken and need fixing, but because you're ready to stop being who the world made you and start becoming who you actually are.
Full Retreat including room/board and meals: $1800. Payment plans are available.
DEPOSIT & REFUND POLICY:
Nonrefundable deposit of $600 due after selection process.
DATES & LOCATION:
October 8-11, 2026 β Dayspring Center (Parrish, FL)
Dayspring is located 45 miles south of Tampa International Airport and 25 miles from Sarasota-Bradenton International Airport
Apply for a spot.
This application takes about 10 minutes. We read every one personally.
